I have never been a morning person, NEVER. I have despised them with every fiber of my being. However this morning for reasons I will never understand, I woke up at 5:00 A.M!!!!! After doing the usual morning thing........I went back to bed but all I could think about was going for a walk/run. So what do I do at 5:15 A.M.......go for a walk/run and it actually felt great. I took a shower and dressed by 6:15, made coffee and now here I am. Who knew!!!!
What is ironic (I guess you could say that) is that I have never been much of a "runner/jogger". But I decided last night instead of complaining about things all the time I need to change my life. I am not getting any younger and really need to fix what I don't like and since plastic surgery is out of the question, especially with 4 kids and being single and not independently wealthy, I would have to change things on my own with the help of higher powers (God). This will be a slow process as I did not jog very far this morning but I DID IT!!!!!!! And I am very proud of myself.
Okay on a school note.. this gives me some free time before the kids wake up to work on my paper and do the research that I need to do. I have narrowed down that I am going to do the paper on bipolar depression. What I haven't decided is to focus on children or adults. I recently found out that I have bipolar depression which was devistating news to me and yet explained so much, the panic attacks, severe ups and downs. Knowing what is wrong with me has been such a relief. Its like finding out that you have diabetes after years of not feeling right and wondering what is wrong with you.
People look at bipolar depression with such a negative tone that I would really like to educate groups that people with bipolar depression are not "crazy" but simply have a medical condition. Sometimes we may act a little "crazy" but who doesn't at one time or another.
Anyway that is all I have this morning. Need more coffee and to do some research. Have a great day!
Carrie,
ReplyDeleteThat was a great post. I am glad you have found the reason you were not feeling well. As you stated people do not understand what is going on in the life of someone diagnosed with depression. It is hard enough to go through the day to day issues, and then to deal with (I want to be nice so I"ll say) misinformed people it gets frustrating. My sister and one of her sons was also diagnosed with bipolar and manic depression, so I do understand some of the reactions they receive from people that are not educated on the illness.